I'll keep this post brief. There's not much to say really, so you can skip this one.
The long and short of it is for a lot of reasons I've been having a really hard time recently, and it's hard for me to think of something positive to post about right now (though there are good things in my life, of course.) but I also don't want to just post something super dramatic and I also don't want to post nothing at all. So here are a few thoughts I've been having, but don't take them too seriously I'll be back to normal next week.
I'll be grateful for the semester to end soon but thinking about what all needs to happen between now and then is really overwhelming.
I don't even know what it is that has made this semester so hard per say. I've been having a lot of personal problems, I guess. But sometimes I feel like I say every semester, or every year has been a really hard year for me. Sometimes I feel like everything is too hard for me. I don't know, like I wasn't built to do all the stuff you're supposed to do to be a person, you know. Or maybe I'm just not trying hard enough, I don't know what it is.
A lot of the time I feel like I just want to sit everyone I know down and say I'm sorry. I don't know how to make that feeling go away, and sometimes it's the only thing I can focus on. It's hard, and every year it feels like it gets a little harder. Figuring out how to deal with it is not easy for me. It's always three steps forward, one step backward, or one step forward, three steps backward. But I'll try harder to become better.
Anyway, I don't have much else to say and I'm sorry this is such a sad sack post. I hope all of your finals are going relatively painlessly and that the weather is not too chilly just yet.
So this doesn't end on a completely sour note, here's a vid I like
No way I’m skipping a post by Erin Walsh! But yeah I’m sorry you’re going through it (were going through it?) right now :-( it’s a lot of pressure to be at college or not and feel like you’re supposed to be having this grand time but also ... not feeling that way (oof that’s like the bell jar) Just know you’re a hard working person and we’re always here for ya! Sadly the TikTok isn’t available I think anymore 😓 but c’est la vie
No need to apologize bud. Everyone goes through sad patches during the year. As long as you know that others will always be around to listen to you and have a shoulder to lean is all that matters :))...I'm sorry that you feel this way though, but hopefully it's just homesickness and once you go home you'll be brand new!