not much at all

It's the last week before February break, so I, like my colleagues and friends here, are counting down the days. Wednesdays I don't have work, which is the perfect day to have some time to write. The problem is that, as I seem to have done again today, I end up doing nothing all day. I think of it as a matter of inertia, but the more I stay in bed, the less motivation I have to get out of bed (coming to you live from, you guessed it, my bed).

But since the commute on Monday and Tuesday takes it out of me like that, I tell myself it's ok to have a day of nothingness and I really do believe it. The real problem is having a good attitude about it though. It feels really nice to sleep in and take naps whenever I want but at a point (I've reached that point), I feel lazy and it feels not as good. That was my problem when we were doing the whole quarantine thing... Like sometimes I feel totally content just doing my thing but other times I feel bored but also not like taking any action.

I was also watching this show, Grand Army, that was making me feel weird. It's a high school show but I would say not as typical because it's more realistic. Like it's not the *most* realistic, at least to my high school experience, but it's much more so than the likes of Glee, Pretty Little Liars, Gossip Girl, etc. It's more edgy in the vein of Skins or Euphoria but less outrageous than skins and more realistic than euphoria. Anyways, I guess I was just in a weird mood anyways but that show was getting to me. They do a good job of capturing everyday casual racism in high schools. Which also makes me feel some typa way... Like comments I hear in passing but weren't addressed to me. Or when they were. Like one character might get called out with "you can't say that, it's racist" but in the end the whole friend group just laughs it off like hahahah that's just good ol' johny. I don't know how productive this is to my ~inner peace~ but what would bother me about kids in high school was not just the blatantly racist remarks I would hear in the classes, hallways, and social medial from my peers, but what I could only imagine was being said behind closed doors. Idk I just watched a few episodes and I'm still processing it so you guys get to hear those reflections.

Anyways, there hasn't been much to this week, so I don't have much to report. For the break, I'm staying around Amiens for the first week and going to Nice the second. I want to make the most of the time I'll be in Amiens though, so hopefully I'll avoid the blame-it-on-inertia rut.

in the boulangerie, there was just a cat sleeping in one of the booths. Smaranda decided to pet her :) and she seemed friendly (the cat, but also Smaranda too haha)

yummy golden curry

I was not disappointed by the pistachio eclair <3

Book of the week: Bridget Jones : L'Age de raison by Helen Fielding (1999) – This is the second book of the Bridget Jones series. I wasn't really planning on continuing but I found the French version in one of those little free libraries and took it just in case. After finishing my last book, I just didn't have anything in particular to read so I went ahead with this one. It's interesting to read it in French because I feel like a lot of the humor comes from her being British and writing in a certain way. That being said, I think the translator did a good job of capturing the voice and style. If anyone here knows who Colin Firth is, a funny part of the second book is when Bridget gets to interview him. It's funny though because in the movie, the actual Colin Firth plays one of Bridget's main love interests. I'm sure the casting was influenced by real life Colin Firth's mention in the books or at least vice versa. And I'm curious to watch the second movie now to see if they do the interview scene.