I’m in a bit of a panic but lying about it to myself so things feel ok
Looking at what everyone else is going through I have to realize I’m lucky to have had this experience at least so far! It’s frustrating what everyone back at Smith is going through not to mention everyone who literally couldn’t even start the semester :-(.... it’s a whole mess!! I’m trying to stay positive but like I’ve just been saying every day, we will see!
In general, I feel like there’s a lot more negativity than there needs to be rn though..... I mean I’m not saying pretend and don’t be realistic, but I feel like what people say should happen is also a strong reflection of their personal interests so I try not to be too affected when people talk about what will come next. I realize if someone read this they wouldn’t even know what I’m talking about but sorry! I just have to get these thoughts out....
I think of the reasons I want to stay, not if for the summer at least for the rest of the semester. They’re selfish reasons I admit. But I guess it’s that it’s worse when things end abruptly and you didn’t get to see things to the end. A huge thing about this program was they told us it would be hard at first. Parisians will get you down and the language learning will be exhausting. But they also told us by the end, in those last 2 months, everything will have paid off! So Idk I do feel some type of way being this worried about if the pay off will even see the light of day. In any case, I’m trying to make the days I have worth it! We never know..... I’d also be sad leaving because I don’t know when I’ll have this sort of opportunity again. I could always come back to visit or even study, but I think it was truly a luxury to be in this particular program, not worrying about housing et tout ça and also being with this particular group of people. I would miss it :-(
But I’m just gonna, like Naoni said I believe, keep calm and carry on ! Please send your good vibes to me and Aboni. (And the rest of youse but I feel like our programs are the pretty uncertain at this point)
Welp, this post seems so wishfully reading it a week later now that everything has happened T-T. But I stand by what you say, I feel like even if everything is going to crap, focusing on the positive is beneficial. It creates hope, which is the main reason people chose to live.
@aboni t'avais raison !! lol
I’m sorry if i made you stressed earlier (i realize i text pretty insensitively), but I’m just saying realistically we ain’t gonna contract corona, but boomers(the ones who are dying and controlling media) are freaking out way too much and they’re the ones i don’t trust and believe in and ultimately the ones sending us home...anyway this is a historical moment and we will look back at the failures many countries and people have done :,)