I guess a majority of this week has been spent trying to savor the last little bit of time with Rachel. She came back on Sunday and bought back some excellent vegan red velvet cupcake. Truly one of the best vegan baked good I am yet to have. Me and Naoni rode the bike way from Northampton to Amherst.
Then Monday through Wednesday I have been working from 8:30-4 then from 6-7:30 it's been rough on my body since all I am doing is walking and standing. Yesterday was awful as my foot swelled a lot. I ended up passing out around 8:30 and was (rudely) woken up by Rachel and Naoni. I didn't mind it though Rachel started playing music and then got offended by Naoni since she dissed one of the songs and honestly I understood why. I could never understand why I wanted everyone to like The Neighbourhood but Rachel was saying that it feels as though when you listen to music it's almost as if you helped write the song since it speaks to you so much and that really resonated. Anyway I am sad that Rachel is gone. I have spent a majority of my summer with her. I have been with her since June 28 and now that she's gone it's kinda weird. It's as though it's now hitting me that summer is over and that I won't be seeing her until next year again. I didn't cry when she left, but she left me a little note and it warmed my heart and made my day. I won't tell y'all the details since it's personal, but I must say that it almost made me cry. I must go on a mini rant though. Like I always feel heartless since I typically don't cry when I'm sad, but like why cry when people are living or when you're saying goodbye. Like people will stay in your life if they really mean a lot to you and if not then you can just cherish the moments you did have. I guess I don't see goodbyes as the end of things. You can always cherish moments. I feel as though sometimes hold onto the physical things more than memories (hence why people become hoarders and collect too many things). Like I would be sad if Rachel left for Paris just the same as when school started. Anyways I am sad, but it just means it's the start of a new chapter in my life.
I love the bike riding vids...this post is very sweet :')
I agree with you Rachel. I feel like getting emotional over things, specifically goodbyes, is fine. What’s the harm in it? It just shows you care. Personally, I get emotional saying goodbye because I know things won’t be the same without that person. I don’t care about very many people so the peeps I do, I hold near and dear to me. They become apart of me, so when they leave it’s like a piece of me is leaving. It less about not being able to talk to them again, but just knowing I am going to miss them imo.
The pic of naoni on the bike is vsco vibes Awww I’m glad you liked the note— must’ve been pretty powerful to have that effect o_o but I get what you mean about getting emotional. But also I can’t help it! Goodbyes usually feel like ends to me bc you know that no matter what, things will be different :/ but I’ve found with some people that’s not always true! You can pick off where you left off in some cases ¯\_(ツ)_/¯