I've been having a hard time making my decision about whether or not I'm going to go to the JET program. Like it would be a wonderful opportunity for me, and I've always wanted to live in Japan, but I don't know if now is the time, but when will it be. I feel like I applied on a whim and now reality is setting in and that taking another gap year could make a lot of things difficult for me. And it's not as if I don't wanna go, but if I stay home I can get my health in order, work (and pay off loans/ save for medical school), get my clinical hours, do some research (maybe, I hate research lol), and most importantly be with my family and friends. I feel as though I've been away from them for a long time and I just want to be with them, especially my niblings. I just want to be there for more of their life milestones, and Japan can't give me that. And if I'm working, I can splurge on things like a nice trip to Japan, Mexico, and Haiti (these are the countries on my list if I stay in the USA), thrifting, and perhaps some stability in my life would be nice instead of moving around every couple of months. I guess I'm looking for validation in my decision from people who aren't my family (because they're biased :p) and to feel secure in it so that no matter the response from JET I won't be swayed.
(went for a mini hike, to help clear my mind. I'm gonna complete the whole thing this weekend...also there's a Lagrange, Georgia, so I was kinda surprised to see it where I live too!)
Any who, this week has been chill. I was suffering last week. Between planning for my upcoming trips (tell me how I'm traveling every week for the next 6 weeks, idk...but I know I'm broke rn lol), having my period, starting lent, planning for my classes, and coming to terms with my homesickness. I needed to actively remind myself of things I appreciate, lol. This week has been slow and a lot of the planning is coming to an end. Italy is pretty much squared away (though we should def make reservations for day trips), Portugal is just about done, and Paris/Le Havre/Etretat is completely done! I like when things are complete, speaking of which, I just completed my first book of the year, and it makes me feel so accomplished. I didn't think I would be able to complete it, especially due to continuous racism, classism, and use of Cameroonian English pidgin, but I did. Anyway, enough rambling for me, see you in the next post.
So calming 😌
Errrrr, I think you kind of already made the decision dude— there’s clearly more pros to one decision than the other. I know we already talked about this on the phone earlier, but I was really excited for you to go do JET until you started saying too much stuff about your health and how it is impeding on your life… Anywaysssss, lovely photos and like mommy said, our little trip this weekend will hopefully subdue your homesickness at least for a little while :)
Wow alot said! First of all congratulations on finishing your book! I am so happy that you are completing things and in my most non biased voice I do know that you are wise and will make the right choice when it comes to your health and the JET program….I hope that you do also make time to take care of your health situation but do want the decision to be all yours…I will support your decision no matter what it is and am sorry that you feel so torn…but a girls trip with me and Naoni will hopefully improve your home sickness for a little while…and allow you time to unwind and clear your head so you can make…