I feel like I've been telling myself this a lot lately. My health hasn't been the best lately and me stressing out about not only JET, but the future in general is taking a toll on me. I've been trying to enjoy relaxing with Naoni here in Veynes, but honestly I feel just distracted. I can't really focus on much of anything, I can barely even focus on watching anime. It's not even that I don't like the anime, the animation and the plot is literally PERFECTION, but I just can't fully appreciate it... I hope this pain will finally go away. I was talking with my dad about my health (because if you think I worry a lot, wait until you meet with OG, I def take after my dad in that way lol) and he was saying that he hopes I get rejected so that I would have to stay home and take care of my health. And honestly, I low-key I agree because if I get in I can't pass-up on the opportunity to live in Japan for a year, but it would also mean me neglecting my health again. Idk...this post isn't all that positive because I just don't feel good, and I feel like it's affecting me more and more every day. Like sometimes I'm in so much pain that I don't want to get out of bed, but at the same time I want to take advantage of living in another country, you know. I guess this post is less of what I'm doing and how I'm feeling...love me 🥲
But here are the songs I've been obsessing with....listen to it heauxs:
1)Battle, my love (Circa Survive)
2)Ascending Heaven (Asyndeton)
3) Come (Namie Amuro)
4) Near (Bilmuri)
5) How (the Neighbourhood)
6) Northern Lights (Kennie)
7) Shattered (Bella Ruby)
8) Wonderwall (Oasis)
9)Демоны
10) Tsuioku no-sou, Chou no Ao
Aw, I'm sorry you have been stressing recently dude :+( i agree with the others, your health is always the most important factor to consider. I know you will make the right decisions when the time comes and the future will have many more opportunities than even JET, so try not to worry too much (even though that's not advice that's easy to take hehe)
I like the posts that are more feelings rather than action centered so don't worry! but yes... it's hard when the decisions are still being made and you don't know what the options really are yet. But I also agree with Naoni, if it doesn't feel right in terms of your health, then don't ignore that. When opportunity knocks it can be hard to turn down but also it won't be the last time that opportunity comes along. And perhaps if you go later in the future you'll be in a better position health-wise too. I'm not saying this to deter you, but just things to consider which I know you know all about already. I guess at this point…
Come and Wonderwall can get it, I am obsessed!! But yeah, I will follow you in whatever decision you make. But if you really feel like you are sacrificing your health to go to Japan, I think you should remember there will always be other opportunities to live in Japan if this times isn’t the right time (remember, I saw that study abroad thing we could do during med school and we would be in Tokyo!). Just don’t sacrifice yourself (though I still want you to go despite everything I just said 😭). Anyways, I’m planning to finish Vinland saga today after I go shopping for the food and supplies that’s gonna have to last me for 6 weeks :’))))