2 Post in 1

So here's my blog post from last week:

Today I lost a little bit of myself…I had to take out all of my piercings. At first it was causing a lot of mental distress for me and I really was worried that I was going to fall back into unhealthy coping mechanism (ie self-harm), but I said it out loud to some of my fellow PCTs and realized that taking out my piercings wasn’t that serious and that I would be aight lol. I was truly being dramatic but without saying it aloud I would’ve of never realized it. High-key the Peace Corp is making me realized that I have come a long way with my coping mechanisms. I’m not battling depression, my social anxiety isn’t bad (though my general anxiety is so generalized that I don’t know how to change that one as of now), I have a proper supportive social network that’s included more than enough people, I’m not lonely, I have self-worth and esteem. I know that I deserve happiness and I won’t let anything keep me away from it. I really do believe that happiness is a state of mind and I have it. Even though life is hard right now and I’m having some familial issues I can still confidently say that I’m happy.

I’m trying to get better about complaining too much versus venting/sharing emotions. I’m not perfect, but I’m learning and I’m sure I’ll find my middle soon. But I say this to say thanks for being such a good support network for me guys. And I really do miss you guys and I’m looking forward to the day we will be together soon.

Other than that guys I don’t have any updates…I have no piercing right now and I’m biking like a mofo lol. Okay ttyl ✌️

(my friends)

(making rice flour, I think)

Here's my post for this week, it's just some videos of my morning... I'm gonna try to make a more comprehensive video when I get better Wi-Fi/ in my permanent site and have more free time.

***The videos I took I accidentally deleted, so I'm going to record a more comprehensive video for next week. Okay byyeeeee!!!