Yeshua, YEshua, YeSHua

Hellooooo heauxs! I am back but in Lisboa!! I really like it out here, the atmosphere, the food, the people, the views, the architecture, the weather-- it is all amazing! I have a lot of photos but I will try to condense it so it doesn't feel like a fart ton. But I have to say, I am really happy out here and am having a lot of fun.

However, even though I am having a lot of fun and feel like I am happy, I feel like there is an undertone of sadness/anger inside of me... Not in a "I am trying to convince myself I am happy" kind of way or in a "I am trying to ignore the bad around me" kind of way but I think my depression may be creeping back in. It is interesting that my depression is rolling in despite my life being relatively fine, so either it is something that I can't foresee what is emotionally bothering me or maybe the lack of sunlight is finally taking its effects on my psyche (also speaking of, my skin on my arm, thighs, back, and stomach is experiencing a lot of discoloration and I think it is because of the lack of sunlight. Like my skin is slowly turning lighter and won't become consistent again 😭). Or maybe I just need around myself in complete peace... I have bouncing around between social situations and maybe I just need to be a vegetable for a week and not interact with anyone.

But yeah, I don't want to think too much about it. Since my depression™️ is in its early phase, I want to remain as blissful for as long as possible before I become full fledge depressed and have to deal with whatever is going on. I didn't expect to say all this but here it is I guess :'D

Alright byeeeeeeeeeee

My last week in Évreux :(

I said goodbye to the class I had every week, they made me a french entertainment encyclopedia for me and gave me some bread for my ride, I had "delicious" french cantine food, cooked for my neighbors, and I walked through town one last time... And then my neighbor took me to the train station and saw me off T-T

My 25 hour commute from Paris to Lisbon

I enjoyed waiting in Bercy (usually I am running through Bercy cuz it's mad sketchy but I was able to enjoy the area for the first time) and here are all the bags I had to travel with through the metro and streets.

Lisboa

We had a charcuterie, went on a boat ride, traveled through old Lisbon/Alfama, visited a castles and monuments, saw nice views, and have been eating yummy stuff :)