With High Highs come Low Lows

I didn't take any photos today, so appreciate my other TR crush lol

I feel like the only things that has been increasing in my life is my uncertainty of my future, my pain (on Monday I literally thought I was gonna die...but it passed) and high key, I think that I'm starting to get homesick. After seeing Sebastian, I realized that I miss hanging out with my bestie. And then I spoke with my niblings, and they're growing like little bean stocks! Who told them that they could grow up when I'm not there. Oddly enough, even though I'm feeling homesick, I really like living in Veynes. Every time I walk through town, I'm still mesmerized by their beauty, like when I first arrived. So today, I was feeling particularly bored/lonely and just like an overall failure, so I decided to appreciate the mountains by eating out and taking a bus ride to Gap (the biggest city near me) and honestly I feel a lot better.

The restaurant had a plat de jour of : cassoulet de canard et porc. I didn't really like the beans they were served with but the duck sausage and porc bits and the sauce was perfect, it reminded me of this lamb dish I got in Barcelona actually, and afterwards I ate tasty dessert. It was like two sweet but hard bread things with a really sweet noisette cream between. It was surprisingly too sweet for me, but I finished nonetheless, and I still feel very full from the meal. From there I tried to distract myself by calling mi familia, but they were all busy, so I impulsively bought a bus ticket and only had 12 minutes to get to the gare. Luckily, the bus was late, so I didn't have to run. I walked around Gap and caught the same bus and bus driver back(embarrassing, right).

Also, I saw an "old friend" on the bus (he was just one of the first people I met who was around the same age as me and spoke English, lol), but the story is complicated. I saw him, but I wasn't sure that it was him and while walking through Gap I thought I saw a lot of my students, but they wouldn't respond, so I was feeling anxious about waving or noticing someone else who might not respond, so I just assumed that I didn't know him. But when he got on the bus I looked up at him and then instantly went on my phone, and then he said the worst thing an anxious person wants to here, "Hey Aboni, you didn't recognize me!" I was like, shoot me. He did notice me looking at him and not saying anything. Nonetheless, the dude is super chill, and we proceeded to chat for 40 minutes in Franglais (I felt so cool lol, I always thought that speaking Franglais would mean using both languages in a sentence, but like when we got tired of trying in one language we would speak in the other).

We spoke a lot about pretty deep stuff. Like he told me, he was a willing and happy Catholic until they told him being Gay was sinful and like I told him my two cents on the topic, and how our students (middle schoolers) are every -ism, and just about the area. I also learned that he speaks like a million languages (English, Spanish, French, German, Russia, and apparently "some" Polish even though he was full on helping these Polish people navigate the bus system). Any who, he's super cool and invited me to his house (which is on the other side of the mountain, tbh I've never seen it, but it's only 10 km away). But he's unemployed living with 5 people, and he gardens his food and cuts wood for his housemates because they don't have HVAC which is kinda wild to me. Then he suggested I buy some local apple juice and I did along with some apricot juice, and honestly I'm glad he did (I'm about to finish this whole bottle lol). Anyway, today was the highlight of my week, and honestly I think I'm okay with that 😌...