It's the Climb

I don’t know why but this week has been hard for me, not in a “I have too much school work” kind of way but rather “I am dealing with too much” kind of way. I feel as though if I focus too much in one aspect of my life other things start falling apart and when I try to fix those things something else begins to fall apart. I don’t know, I feel like I need a win in at least once and I feel like that hasn’t happened yet. I feel like I am failing my academics, my social life, my finances, and my future self. I thought about all this one night and it made me pretty upset but I quickly got over it within the day. However, the issue still lies: I am a failure. But I don’t know, this fact doesn’t really bother me as much as I know it should. It is pretty arbitrary, but I just have this underlying feeling that everything is going to be well. Through all my hardships, I know I will succeed. And my friends and family (and even strangers) tell me that as well so it must be true :’))

Life is like climbing a mountain: you get tired several times on the way to the top. But every time you look back, you remember how far you came and why you are climbing the mountain.

Saying all that, my week was generally alright. I started my first survey so that was exciting! Then on Thursday for Otelia Cromwell day, me, Aboni, and Claire went to this korean restaurant. It was good, but I for sure had better korean food (I don’t think I would go back by choice).

The toeboki was pretty good tho (Idk how to spell the word, so I decided to spell it phonetically (do I pronounce it correctly?))!

Then on Friday last minute, Isabel invited me and Aboni to a dance concert at Umass and we took her up on her invite and I wasn’t disappointed. The show was very well choreographed and the dancers were VERY talented. I enjoyed watching the show a lot! After the show, we had to get an uber because we weren’t well dressed for the cold (it was 15 degrees and super windy). Then on Saturday, I went out with a woman from the class of ‘71. We went to an orchard that had a bunch of art everywhere. I thought that our time together would be awkward but it was far from that! We talked about a lot of things both frivolous and purposeful and admired the art around us and ate a bunch of apple stuff (she bought us some hot apple cider (which I thought was gross until that day(it really hits the spot, especially when you are cold)), an apple cider donut for each of us, and a apple pie for me to take home). But I really like this woman, dare say I might even admire her. She is very sweet, smart, and adventurous. I hope one day that I can be half as cool and experienced as her.

We stumbled upon this cool shed. Inside, it used a old camera method to reflect the view from outside into the shed :0

These were probably my favorite display at the orchard

And this one was probably my favorite piece out of all the works. It wasn't flashy like a lot of the other ones and radiated hominess, which I liked a lot

:)))

Also, I have been listening to Send me on My Way by Rusted Roots to get me through each day and I think it has been working pretty well. It is such a cheery song that really gets my day going (you guys should try listening to it one morning!).

But yeah, that’s all folks. I hope you all are having a good week, I am just going to leave these here for you guys…

She is a double major in french sexuality and cultural anthropology. She loves to drink her lemongrass matcha every morning and every night or else she will have a B-fit. Her name? Sinclaire