Soooo I wept this week, and hard. I had a really great host sister last week: we literally did everything together. And she was exactly what I always wanted, a little sister. She was so nice and sweet and energetic. She was always interested in what I had to say and was always trying her best to speak English (which wasn’t really her strong suit as she put it). So when we had to leave each other Sunday, she gave me a parting gift. It was very cute and thoughtful and honestly I didn’t even think she would do that for me, which really touched me.
She made me a kind letter and a little book of a lot of the pics we took together and some Gudetama stuff :’))
When we got to the station, she started crying. Then she started literally weeping and saying, “I am going to miss you please keep in touch.” And I was like this is really tugging at my heartstrings but I am going to try to stay strong: I am not going to cry. But then once I went through the turntable and waved goodbye to her something cracked and I realized that we won’t see each other for a really long time so then I literally burst into tears. This girl in my group, who says she doesn’t have emotions, along with other people in my group started crying because my host sister and I were crying so hard. It literally took me half an hour to get myself together.
But even though I am sad that we won’t see each other for a while, I am glad I made such an awesome friend. I want to continue talking to her, cherish the memories we made thus far, and hopefully visit her sometime in the future.
We made sushi candy together
We went out late to the beach
We got Miçangas
We went to a summer festival
She taught me how to surf (which I absolutely love and want to continue learning now(also disclaimer my host dad decided he wanted to put filters on our pics so the pics look v cheesy but it’s okay I guess))
Anyway, I found out that I am intimidatingly “cool” like a “too cool for school” kind of gal. I was really shocked! I told my mom the other day and she literally started laughing and was like “Really?! That’s the craziest and funniest thing I’ve heard!” And I have to agree, not in a humble/modest kind of way but in all actuality. I don’t know what I do exactly for anyone to think that about me. So, I asked my group mates why they see me as so and they said it’s because I give off chill vibes and whenever I talk I have something interesting/funny to say. But I think I ruined my “cool” status yesterday. I was talking about kazoos and then someone was like, “What is a kazoo?” And I was like “What?!” So I showed them kid kazoo and I started quoting it word for word and re-enacting what the kid did and they were just like 0-0. Then later that day when we went to get ramen I was telling them how I don’t believe in stats and about my communist manifesto and my goal of having people living under my rule in Antarctica by kidnapping them and about how I don’t believe the world is round and that I don’t believe in medicine and stuff. They were once again just like 0-0 ummm yeah okay.
ALSO! I thought that I was like a mediocre leader in this program but my group mates said that they think me and this other girl are the best leaders and I never felt so flattered. But all these juxtaposing realities between my mind and the world supports my theory that I don’t have social skills. Like I always think that I am projecting myself in a way that is always different than how I actually am perceived. Is that weird? Do you guys have the same issues, leave comments down below please :)
Lastly, here are some pics from last week. Honestly, there is too much that I want to say about last week. But I don’t want to make this post like 10 minutes long so I will save my stories for when I see you guys again!
(Again with the filter :/) Anyway, me on the board waiting for a wave
Got me a good banana
My host mom helping me put on a yukata
About to get on the Shinkansen for the first time
LOML
A cute cup :)
2 of my niblings are now in Elementary school! They are growing up so fast
I can see Mt. Fuji from my new classroom :0
Tbats all for this post, thanks for tuning in this week: do good (I’ve been slacking with the Jermbot references lately, need to get back on it ;)))!
You're totally a cool kid. And I'm glad you're having so much fun there. Keep doing good kid ;))
ohmygosh this is such a sweet post.
you are cool!! but I think it's funny how you exposed yourself and your flat earth theory. I definitely relate to what you were saying about being perceived differently than you are...haven't figured it out tho
wow host sister goals :-o that's so cute that you guys hung out that much and had parting gifts ... I always wanted a little sister or at least a younger girl cousin/niece but that has yet to be realized (well I have young girl cousins but they're closeish to our age which is also super fun but i mean like a baby)
you are a cool person so you shouldn't be surprised! but also yeah... when you say the world isn't round, then I too go o_O it's ok tho, don't ever change :D
I think I'm pretty accurate usually about how people perceive me whether it be awkward and quiet or ~cool~ but idk I might be wrong.…