I didn't want to make this post, yet here I am at 2:09am making it-- you see my dedication to the blog 🥹
Anyway, I had a bit of a mental lapse Monday. I think the constant lack of sleep (I think I was only getting at max 4 hours of sleep at a time), lack of consistent meals, lack of love and support from family, not having time for myself, spending money on everything but what I want, general stress with PC and family, and working a lot has lead me to this moment 😭😭. But I think work Monday cracked me cause I realized I was gonna have to be there for 9 hours wasting a perfectly beautiful day working in a job that doesn't appreciate me and is under-paying me and have to deal with rude customers. And when Sebastian came by I was happy to see him but when I started talking to him I started laughing and crying and I was like "Yeeeeah, not today". So I told my boss I couldn't work and just left for home and proceeded to sleep most of the day 💀.
I wanna get my life in order but I need to learn how to not be a floor mat so I can get my ish done :'))) (I hate living at home if y'all can't tell 🐒).
Anywayyyys, I have been doing fun things out of the house which has made life a little bearable so I'll add pics of that below. Sorry for the depressing post, I am feeling a bit down and don't really have much else to say that isn't so I'll end the post here 😭. Love y'all ❤️❤️❤️
[I arrived in Michigan to surprise May and I think it worked, We wore 2000s inspired outfits ( May went for 2000s Mariah, I did alt/grunge 200s, and Isabel went for disney 2000s), Isabel made me and May a FEAST, Isabel's cat Bean-- she was super sweet and fun, went to the D (hehe, Detroit (ngl I thought atl sucked but after going to Detroit I have a new found appreciation for Atlanta 😭)), Celebrated May's bday and took these pics despite the cold bitter weather (it was literally 0 degrees there 💀), went to a greek restaurant and it had a pegagus head, Flew back home during sunset and got to experience the sun on the right of the plane and the moon on the left of the plane: it was truly a cool experience!]
[Have been getting friendly with my coworkers and we had a valentine's day themed party :))))]
*If you didn't getting by now the title is Double D as in feeling down and for Detroit ;)
I don't know how, but I missed you and Erin's post from this week...but I read Rachel's Were y'all late or re-edited? Anyway, the cut looks pretty gnarly...still got the black-and-blue. And I loved that you had fun at the V-day party and in Detroit. Also, I'm sorry you're feeling depressed about being home, but when I was home I just found things to do to stay away (by mostly just working for long hours, going to cafés, and making Amazon wish lists lol...maybe you can do the same) and also just making plans for the future with contingency plans. Maybe doing stuff to work towards med school would be good. Be it a job that's in the med field…
oooh the party you had with your coworkers is so cute! I approve, the charcuterie board is chef's kiss and the pic of you guys around the fire is very inspiring
I'm glad you got to spend some fun times with May and Isabel !I love the them, also very cute :) I agree that Detroit airport is not it...
I'm sorry you've been having a rough time :( you really are doing A LOT though. Remember to take time for yourself! I know it's hard with all the obligations. But you are important and deserve to take it easy too.
Also i never thought about wounds taking longer to heal if you're anemic... makes sense though